HELLLOOOO EVERYONEE!!

Whee! Back after a self-imposed 4-month hiatus. 4 MONTHS!! Haiz.

I really must learn to start coping with JC life better.

Anyway to be honest I wasn't actually planning to start posting again, but I kinda got inspired really, and felt like recording my thoughts just this once so I don't forget it. And when I saw the poor old blog I felt recharged.

I hope some people will still check out my blog after so long.

Moving on! Ya, I feel like a brand new person with a new purpose in life and clear steps ahead of me. AND I LOVE THE COUNCILLL!! Omg I never actually realised how much these people meant to me. My life in JC without them would be like a black and white movie, a monochrome poster.

I actually cried to sleep thinking of them. Emo I know, but that's me.

And like I've met a person who inspired me so so much! As in honest, genuine admiration. I feel so driven everytime I talk to her. I thank God for letting me get to know such an individual.

Also, there was this commentary in The Catholic News by Father Ronald Rolheiser that really touched me. Especially this segment: 'We are mature when love is a decision that's not based upon an emotional pay-off for us but on the intrinsic goodness that's inside the other'. Nice right? That came from the below paragraph, which really sums up my feelings in the pretty recent past

(He quotes from another author, Henri Nouwen) 'Today the small rejections of my life are too much for me - a sarcastic smile, a flippant remark, a brisk denial, a bitter silence, a failure to be noticed, a coldness from a colleague, an indifference from someone I love, a nagging tiredness, the lack of a soul mate, a loneliness that I can't explain. I feel empty, alone, afraid, restless, unsure of myself and I look around for invitations, letters, phone calls, gifts for someone to catch my eye in sympathy, for some warm gesture that can heal my emptiness. And right now I don't particularly want God, faith, church, or even a big and gracious heart. I want simply to be held, embraced, loved by someone special, made to feel unique, kissed by a soul mate. I'm empty, a half-person. I need someone to make me whole.'

When I read that I just said: 'This guy is pretty f***king good!' (ya, I cursed, I was so touched. LOL). It stirred up a lot of things inside me. That's exactly how I've felt for 2 entire years. And I never knew why. This article answered that. I have rediscovered my friends, the treasures that they are.

THANK YOU GOD. Finally. He has answered my prayers. If you want the article, just ask me for it. This and Coach David's leadership workshop has so refreshed and renewed me. I can tackle the new day with vigour!

To all my dearest friends and loved ones, enjoy your life and all the best to you. I hope you're having a great time too.

This has been a great first post after such a long period of frustration.

Andreas

P.S: Oh great! My eyes are moist after typing this. Haiz. Too emo.

Don't try to get everyone to love you. Instead, try to love everyone you know as much as you can - Jesus